When two people decide to dissolve their marriage there is so much that has to be ironed out, and it comes at a time when the people don't particularly want to talk to each other, much less discuss things that are going to carry down through the years. It's a difficult process, but one thing remains certain- everything is going to change.

Right now I'm concerned with money- and that is probably the subject that looms biggest for me. It probably shouldn't be, but it is. (Can you tell? It's the second topic of my blog.) My kids are almost all grown and ready to leave, and I have a house full of stuff that can be divided up. So, it comes down to the greenback. One of the sticking points of our marriage is that my husband has had the most earning power, and I have been on the sidelines making paltry little during the past twenty-nine years. Yes, I said twenty-nine years. In one more week that is how long we have been married. And while hubby's career has taken off quite well, I've been relegated to the sidelines. So, I'm looking at being worse than broke, if I don't figure out how to really increase my earning power.

During our marriage I held a series of low paying jobs; working as a cashier at a Chinese restaurant in Augusta, Georgia, McDonald's then in a gift shop in Sierra Vista, Arizona, then finally a bit of a career working Civil Service in Germany. Which I also picked up after the birth of our son, in Utah. After that it was downhill; the next three years saw us move three different times, pretty difficult to keep any kind of career going with that kind of record. And for the record; my husband was a career Army Officer, so our transitory lifestyle should make some sense to you now.

When we settled here where we presently live there was the pull of my wanting to stay home to raise our children vs. letting strangers do it in a daycare scenario. Going to work won out, but it wasn't the smartest job. I worked in real estate for six years, then gave that up. The stress between working and trying to keep my husband happy proved too much. We had invested quite prudently in several properties that I found, and when my husband was content with our holdings he told me he didn't have any use for my current job, so I should quit. And that is the truth, I'm not making it up. So, after a couple of tense years I finally had enough and did quit. I opted out to stay home and try to focus on our kids. I'm pretty sure that was the right thing to do. Even if my husband has doubts.

So, in between loads of laundry and dinner prep I'm going to find gainful employment doing something. I have the feeling I know what it is, after all the Holiday season is right around the corner and I'm sure some places will be hiring temporarily. Not a pleasant prospect, but I guess I'm going to have to do what I must. No pithy ending to this entry, just a straight up fact.