Self Satisfaction

After six months of indecision I finally have 'it' in hand. The article in question? My separation agreement. The document spelling out my new life paragraph by paragraph. I am experiencing an enormous amount of relief right about now. Relief that some decisions have been made, and that be they good or bad they are made.

Another interesting idea to note here: After almost thirty years of married life I finally have our relationship spelled out in plain English so we both can understand it clearly. I don't want to sound callous about such a huge chunk of my life, but I have had the feeling for quite a few years that money was really the only thing that my Ex ever measured my true worth by. As long as I was bringing in a paycheck I was good to go. If I 'had' to stay at home for whatever reason (such as relocating to another continent and having to find gainful employment or perhaps wanting to stay home to raise our children) then my value went down in his eyes. You think I kid. If I even have broached the subject here it is merely because Ex subliminally conveyed the idea to me.

So, now we have concrete guidelines on how the rest of our relationship will go.